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i’m sorry for being like legitimately upset that someone basically bragged abt stealing my oc when i’ve watched how he does this shit for five fucking years. you could have dm’d your friends. posting MY OC’S NAME publicly and then getting surprised and upset when i get mad abt it
and then going on to just??? try to tell me (w/o evidence) that “oh well you were abusive to me so jot that down” like as if when i wasn’t explaining things that hurt me in our relationship you didn’t say “oh that sounds really victim blame-y i’m not gonna talk to you rn”
nah nah i can admit to that. i did shitty things and stuff i certainly am not proud of and i definitely am not a saint. but i didn’t lie to and gaslight my partner of nearly five years and financially ruin him so i could take showers and sleep all day while he was at work.
animal abuse //
i didn’t look at a 20 g tank full of fish my partner owned and couldn’t care for (bc of work + school + depression) and say “i have an idea! we should just let them die!”
i didn’t look at a 20 g tank full of fish my partner owned and couldn’t care for (bc of work + school + depression) and say “i have an idea! we should just let them die!”
i didn’t fucking ignore my partner’s MULTIPLE DOCUMENTED pleas for a little help financially, cleaning, attention. i didn’t fucking treat my romantic partner of almost 5 years like a surrogate parent and then get angry with him for not being enough like my own abusive ones.
do i need to go on? really? i’ve fucking blocked you everywhere. i never wanted to hear from or speak to you ever fucking again after how you left me and started INSTANTLY lying about me to silence me because you KNOW how terrified i get and you KNOW i hate callouts
but you KEPT fucking stalking me, you used my passwords that i gave you in confidence while we lived together to stalk me and my friends and gave me paranoia for YEARS NOW. you’ve made WELL DOCUMENTED death threats and i was scared of being in my own fucking home bc
“uwu i’m psychotic i have violent impulses” as if that’s all there is to be psychotic and we’re all just supposed to Deal With That as if i haven’t carried the stigma of being a violent psychotic and otherwise mentally ill person for YEARS
i lied to my family and friends about you FOR MONTHS because i kept saying “he’s getting better it’s fine and i can deal w this because i want him to get better” and in one of our last conversations you ADMITTED TO ME you weren’t trying.
i sat there and cried my fucking eyes out the night before you left because i hated myself and i hated sending you back and i hated everything that led up to it but i saw that i was gaslit and conditioned into being your little white knight, your little “hero” pretty fuckin quick
i was so willing and wanted desperately to talk w you and discuss our problems and you got to sit there and tell me all the things i did wrong but the SECOND i started in on how I FELT and how bad off I WAS i was “victim blaming” and later “wow he was so ableist for not-
- understanding my adhd or autism” as if i didn’t ASK YOU every step of the way and you gave me the affirmative EVERY time. i have YEARS’ WORTH of lies you’ve told me in our messenger chat(s) and maybe yeah i’m going off the deep end a little over a fucking wc oc
but you did the exact same fucking thing you always did to me when i brought you a problem or a possible solution for how to fix smth that was troubling you and you pretty much fucking ignored me and explained yourself away to try to make yourself look better.
i even offered to CALL AND ARRANGE AND PAY FOR THERAPY FOR YOU BECAUSE I FELT SO HORRIFICALLY GUILTY FOR TAKING THAT AWAY FROM YOU HERE. i have the exact fucking note you read that night on my phone right now and so many fucking others bc “he told me maybe once to step up”
AT LEAST TWO TEXT OCCASIONS AND SEVERAL VERBAL ONES ACTUALLY
me personally i genuinely don’t wish ill will on you, lavi. i just really don’t want what happened to me to happen to anyone else, and i want you to get better so very fucking genuinely bc i used to think the world of you and i know people today still do but goddammit dude
this has gotta fucking stop. things that could be said privately are ALWAYS right out in the open for you like you’re so proud of them, regardless of what it is. this time it was the blatant theft of an oc that you used to basically kinseat me as when you could have just
made your own or neglected to mention (publicly) that he was “an old oc” at all. you could have dm’d your friends. you could have posted it on your priv. the only way i caught wind of the theft was because you posted the fucking name and an easy twit search let me find it.
i don’t even know what i’m saying anymore in this thread. i’m fucking exhausted and shaking from how goddamn mad i am and this isn’t even the fucking worst of what you did to me, or to anyone else. i’m sick of this high school level drama and i’m fucking sick and tired of
how it always comes back to you. goodbye lavi, and i fucking hope i never see you again.
