Unearned and/or rushed companionate intimacy makes me clam up.

Like potential romantic partners in person. Niggas be tryna watch movies and rub yo back while doing it as if y& #39;all been married five years. It makes me think I& #39;ve become a figment of someone& #39;s projections once again.

At this point in whatever love life I could even conceive of undertaking in the future, it& #39;s an immediate shutdown when someone makes me think I& #39;m on a pedestal or like they only have this surface idea of me. Physical intimacy can do that for me.

Basically I want someone to get to know me. Not just see the loud, funny, frenetic, partystarting firebrand and I become your manic pixie dream bottom.

That& #39;s why I connect with Eternal Sunshine Of The Spotless Mind so much. SO many people have tried to make me a concept.