i really like masculine and tough women in media ... shame they always get screwed like jasper in SU ... i dunno why but since i was a kid i would see like a biker lady or military woman like vasquez in alien and i would be like "wow she is literally the best i want to be her"
i dont think its internalized misogyny or anything i like feminine things too, especially as a kid i liked fashion and dolls but i always related more to the gender non-conforming women ... i grew up in an all female household so i really have no idea where this originated from